SO, basically summer's been pretty ill lately. I'm off for softball until i find a new team. I quit my old one. It's an long story though. Uhm...I still haven't found a job! But yesterday I went to Acapulco w/ Angel and I applied there! Since he works there, maybe it`ll increase my chances of getting in. Haha i hope so 'cause it`s getting pretty sad that my sorry ass is always broke. I can`t remember exactly what I`ve been doing all summer, but pretty much yesterday I went out w/ Angel and it was really fun. We ate at Acapulco and got some MAJOR hook-ups! We didn`t pay for anything...For the free buffet and free drinks. It was seriously incredible. Then we went to watch Wedding Crashers and it was hilarious. I laughed out loud...Hah. We didn`t have to pay for that either! School starts in about a freaking month and I haven`t even started my summer project. I'm a HUGE mofo'in bum i know...But I just can`t do it. Summer's been way to chill to worry about homework. Besides its my birthday soon so i don`t want to be all stressed out over gay homework. Let's see what else...OH yeah baby i finally got my permit! Haha! And hopefully I can go on vacation somewhere this summer. I think i'm going to Washington D.C or something. I usually hate traveling, but for some reason I really want to go somewhere big this summer before I become a big bad senior. Well late.

so, basically, someone punked my phone. i temporarily [hopefully...] don`t have a phone guys. do call me at home though... ask for my number. [i`m not going to publicly post it here, because some freak has been calling me leaving sick messages on my phone.] sOo yes. i`m lonely w/ out my phone. i hope she`s safe wherever she is...

we have a softball game tomorrow! vs. kennedy! they`re good. i`m nervous. but SO ready to play! yay!!!

i have an upcoming job interview for club libby lu! i`m excitttted! this whole job thing is new to me...

okay. well i have two huge tests tom. & its late. so byee! =)

Softball opens league against Orange Lutheran next week! I'm so excited. I have been applying for a good number of jobs lately... But i haven`t actually turned in any apps yet. So far i have filled out applications for Club Libby Lu, Jamba Juice, and Build-a-Bear. I want to apply at Bliss, Olive Garden, and The Jazz Kitchen. I can`t wait! I`m so excited... I need my own source of bling ka-ching! =) Oh, how I can hardly hold my pants up until Summer!... Hopefully I can go to driving school over the summer also. That way, i`ll have BOTH freedom and money! To top it off, softball's going to Utah! wooo! And guess what?... When Summer's over, it`s SENIOR year, baby!!! Hoorah... Summer, come now! Puh-lease! Alright, well i'm out. I'll catch you xanga junkies later!

To let go isn`t to forget, not think about, or ignore
It doesn`t leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret
Letting go isn`t winning, and it isn`t losing
It`s not about pride and it`s not about how you appear
And it`s not obsessing or dwelling on the past
Letting go isn`t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts
And it doesn`t leave feelings of emptiness, hurt or sadness.
It`s not giving in or giving up
Letting go isn`t about loss, and it`s not defeat.

To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on
It is having an open mind and confidence in the future
Letting go is accepting
It is learning and experiencing and growing
To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh
Made you cry and made you grow
It`s about all that you have
all that you had and all that you will soon gain
Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving
Letting go is growing up
It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy
To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and to set yourself free

Letting go doesn`t mean giving up. it`s simply accepting that some things weren`t meant to be....